The Engine And The Me

I get 3-4 offers from VC backed startups every time I post something new on social media. I have 3 interviews stacked up. I already attended one 3 days back (I hate attending them at 2 AM in the morning).

All of these come with a cost.

I work on things which don't have many guides on the internet. Whatever I do becomes a resource for people to read. I need to keep things as correct as possible, answer to rebuttals and confusion, etc.

I often lose touch from reality. My friends and family don't understand what I do. My world has drifted far apart from theirs. People who approach me, want something from the "engine" inside me. They are not here for the "me" me. I feel a strange mixture of loneliness and adrenaline. I don't know what will fix it, but time can heal every wound.

I crave for someone who doesn't just see the engine inside me, but also the me me.